May 3, 2011:

…to prove the majesty of His creation

(Immediate healing offers no glory to the intricacies of our bodies healing abilities that God has bestowed upon them.)

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October 21, 2010:

the “childlike faith” is a MUST in healing and peace

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June 24, 2010:

“The third opinion is that one should pray for the desires of one’s heart, not guessing or presuming what the will of God for the future is. That is the rule followed by the “incurable” woman, by the parents of dying and dead children in Scripture, and by many others, including Jesus himself, who prayed that this cup would pass from him, if possible. What makes Christ’s case different, of course, is that, unlike us, who do not and cannot know the future, he could and did know the future – and still he prayed for the desires of his heart…..

The Bible nowhere commands Christians to “submit to the will of God,” precisely because we do not know that will. The Bible commands us hundreds of times to obey God’s commands. We must never confuse our guesses about the future with “God’s will” and piously submit to those guesses – or more likely the guesses of clerics who think they know the future. God’s commands we know, because they are revealed to us in Scripture, but apart from revelation, we cannot know his will, and therefore we cannot “submit” to it, nor need we try to do so.”

excerpt from a really good article at http://www.trinityfoundation.org/journal.php?id=247

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May 25, 2010:

There are bits of truth in everyone’s reasoning; satan cannot create anything, he can only take the Truth and distort it to serve his purposes. What some believe, has bits of Truth. It has to, to make it believable. However, God’s Truth is the only solid and unchanging Truth.

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May 23, 2010

I should be praying the way that Jesus did in the garden…

³⁶ And He said, Abba, Father, all things are possible for You. Take this cup away from Me; nevertheless, not what I will, but what You will.

That is TOTAL surrender, and He is to be our example! I can ask for this to be taken, but I need to be okay with whatever He desires for me. And I need to know that my wholeness comes in my spirit through His Spirit, not always in my flesh. That’s not to say that my flesh WON’T be healed, just that “His grace is sufficient” (2 Corinthians 12:9)…and I need to trust in that, and be okay with whatever His decision may be.

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April 24, 2010:

There are certain situations in life where rationality does you no good…case in point; faith. ~Steven

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March 24, 2010:

Trust is probably the most common thing that we all struggle with, I know it’s my #1! …but it seems it is also the MOST IMPORTANT step to receiving peace from God. We have to jump! Even when we can’t see, or understand, or reason. Even when we are angry, and bitter, and spiteful, and afraid, and lost, and hopeless…we just have to jump. Man I wish this were easy!

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February 28, 2010
The chemo IS working! Remember that!

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February 8, 2010 (28 years of learning)

So, these lyrics, I have found, say it best. Why I choose every day to keep stepping forward, despite how broken I am. No matter how bad it gets, no matter how much I cry, in my HEART, I know His will is better than mine. It baffles me sometimes how I can be so “non-human” as to realize that, but praise God I have those brief moments of clarity!

Will I believe you when you say
Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words You say
Every moment of every day

Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me

Help me to RID my endless fears
You’ve been so faithful for all my years
With the one breath You make me new
Your grace covers all I do

Well i will walk by faith
even when i cannot see
because this broken road
prepares your will for me

Well I’m broken-
But I still see Your face
Well You’ve spoken-
Pouring Your words of grace

Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me

Hallelujah!

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January 20, 2010:

So I have finally come to recognize, that I can make promises to God, and He will for sure hold me to them, cept it is pretty silly for me to think He will always stick to MY specifics lol

As things started going down hill in my arms in Dec…I made a promise to the Lord that if He would give me back my arms I would start painting again and stop taking for granted the wonderful gifts that He had blessed me with. And with the awesome recovery of my arms, I have full intent of keeping that promise…:) However, quite silly of me to assume that I can “limit” the type of my skills that I will be willing to do. My new friend today, Michelle, informed me that she too is embracing her gifts! Writing She also said that she will be teaming up with me and having me do some illustrating so we can get our lives going in a good direction Never in a million years would I have been talking to God about involving me with anything that amazing…but apparently He has other ideas beyond my painting So excited for new possibilities and thankful that HE REALLY DOES HAVE A BETTER PLAN THAN I CAN COME UP WITH! I am so blessed to have found Him and I pray that everyone may have the chance to experience the FREEDOM in Christ that is open to ALL OF US!!

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Jan 16, 2010: I am so thankful for God’s awesome graces. It brings tears to my eyes every time He gives me a glimpse of how He’s working in the “storms”. To be able to see His miracles, makes this whole fight worth it…I do get to be a part of something great…its just far different than I had ever imagined…I just pray that I keep finding the faith and strength to keep pushing on.