Exercise…never been my idea of fun. For some, it’s just so great they can’t stand it, for me, it’s a way of cramping my overly fat body…lol. But despite all of my fruitless attempts to avoid it and be lazy, I know in my heart it is something that I need to do to get better. God has really been working on that stubborn heart lately. I feel like He is giving me ways to better my situation AND better my experiences with Him. It’s high time I start listening and ACTING instead of being so passive about the whole situation.

I have been doing TONS of research on how I can “re-wire” my body and “heal” these broken nerves. I have so many, it just seems so overwhelming. The ones that I am most concerned about addressing are the ones that don’t really have anywhere to re-route to. The spinal cord lesions are the ones that are causing me the most grief, they are also the ones that most Dr’s will tell you, have no chance of getting better. They will scar over of course, but the damage that has been done, will most likely stay.

Despite the negative views of doctors and their quickness to just shove a pill in me that will mask the problem, I am still stuck on the fact that I have and AWESOME God! And He has BIG plans for me! And He can most definitely heal those nerves, back to 100%! I have read several things, where on rare occasions, these things just seem to disappear! And I tell you what, I’m soooo looking forward to hearing that on my next MRI! I want Him to knock their socks off! And I want no one else to get the credit, so they know!!

I have read a lot about yoga for my spasticity, and retraining the body with it because of its small, fine, and steady movements. I have come across a Christian Yoga DVD that I think I will be getting. Let me know if any of you have ever used it or have any advice on it. I have come across so many things involving this lately that it just seems arrogant not to listen. My hardest struggle right now is motivation. I spend so much time alone, and the one thing I have NEVER liked, is exercising alone. I have to learn how to make this a productive and enjoyable time, so that I look forward to it instead of dreading it.

God has been so gracious to bless us with a room that we can use for a fitness nook…I feel like I am being so ungrateful because it just sits there most of the time. I have stumbled across a lot of other things that have told me that meditation and relaxation techniques are a MUST in healthy body regeneration. It even talks about it in the book I am reading now. Which, by the way, will most definitely be going on my suggested reading page! Deadly Emotions by Don Colbert. So I started doing more research on meditation.

Meditation has always radiated as hoobie scoobie to me because of my struggle in the past with new age religions and the occult. I have very much disregarded it and even cursed its existence on more than one occasion because of my altered and naive beliefs that it was “bad”. So as you may have guessed, I at first did not respond too well to the idea of “yoga” and “meditation” as necessary to my recovery OR my spiritual health! I did, however, in God’s infinite wisdom of speaking my language, find a website that cleared it up quite a bit for me. More than one site actually, but this one was the one that I seemed to pull back to. I have yet to be able to explore all of its pages, but I am confident that there will be TONS of insight that will miraculously make sense to me

All of this being said, I need to develop a time in my day where I am dedicated to nothing but my time with the Lord and my healing. I am still trying to figure out the best way to do that, and there sits my current quest. I am hoping to make a “Godly Meditation Time” that is so fruitful that I will BEG to get out of bed in the morning…and I am hoping the healing from the stretching and exercise will follow suit, being such a fuel to my day. I know as long as I can figure out a way to center God in it, and KEEP Him as my center and focus, everything will be glorious! Now there is just the hard part of figuring out HOW He wants me to do all of that.

I guess, I have always been blessed with the gift of planning and organization and details. There should be no trouble figuring this out. My problem is, I am VERY good at doing all of this…NOT so good at FOLLOWING the plan once it is made…see that is where the motivation comes in. Well my LACK of motivation comes in anyway…I hate having the underlying pull to laziness! So this is where I will be asking for faithful prayer. Please remember me daily and ask the Lord to place an uncontrollable desire in my heart to do this faithfully EVERY DAY! Pray that it would be fruitful beyond measure and that as my body grows to wholeness again, my relationship with the Lord would also become more whole than it has ever been!

Thank you so much, fellow readers, for all of your prayers and support. It truly is God and those He gives us that keeps us going.

Many Blessings

Amy

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